It was about a year and half ago(2009), I went to the last yoga class on that night at the Yoga Sanctuary Danforth location. The yoga teacher(Sebastian) told us to smile at ourselves during the class while taking poses.
For some reason, I couldn't smile at myself. So, instead of struggling to smile, I started visualizing my mom deep inside my dhanjeon. Because she always puts me in peaceful mood with just thinking about her.
That's how my conversation with my mom started that night. She passed away in an accident when I was doing my military service in the Korean army in 1993.
Sebastian's calm instructions leaded me to meditate while I was taking different poses, and at the same time our conversation continued. I asked her, "Mom, when did I make you the happiest?"
She didn't answer but smiled at me. So I kept asking her, "When I was admitted to Korea University?", "When my score was #1 among all other students in town?", "When I bought you a new laundry machine with my first paycheque?" She didn't answer but my questions didn't stop, either.
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It was just before taking Shivasna pose and the class was almost coming to an end. It just hit my brain and almost came out of my mouth, "When I was born?"
Yes, she answered me with her voice. The voice that I couldn't remember for a quite while made me have almost teary eyes. Yes, it was when I was born!
It was when I came to this world, and that moment, I made my mom the happiest! I made my mom happiest just when I was born! I never knew it until she told me that night.
Ironically, the yoga teacher Sebastian closed the class with the comment that he saw the smile of Buddha.
Even though I am still not sure whether he saw it from my face or not, I thank him more than words can say! Thank you so much, Sebastian! I am so blessed! Your yoga class I will never FORGET!
